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Journal Entry: Wed Jan 29, 2014, 5:38 PM

Idk if many of you know, but when I was younger I got bullied in school for what I enjoyed, I bring this up because of what recently happen to a kid for liking MLP and being bullied for it, to the point of almost taking his own life. 

I hated school and people in general, I know there's no real easy way to handle it and everyone takes things differently. 

But I want to encourage those that do have problems to try to your best to vent with your art even if people around you won't listen.. 

I know it seems silly now and weird. but back when I was bullied and ignored, rocketchu and growlash was how I got out my anger that I felt to the ones that bullied me. 
thunder punch by timmy-gost

animation notes by timmy-gost 
random battle pic 2 by timmy-gost

sometimes it can be fun to play the bad guy through art, to get your revenge that way or at lest it helped satisfy my hurt and anger back in high school. I used them to make my art work even better. 

Stay strong no matter what, remember to always draw on. 

Heart by VengefulSpirits

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TheraMutt Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Kurai-PhantomX Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014
Huh, now that I remember, people sort of made fun of me for liking Pokemon. I mean, they weren't bad insults or anything, but this kid named Forest would say, "She likes Pokemon," in a sneering kind of tone. I didn't understand bullying back then, so it didn't affect me so much, but now that I understand it, it either angers me or hurts me. But I mostly get bullied just online, not so much in real life. Everyone's nice to me in real life. I guess I don't get bullied online, but called stupid or something for making a simple mistake, and someone once asked for forgiveness for being rude to me and they were like "I take that back I didn't mean it" or something. People these days >:/
raveneevee Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
my OC BlackLight was a way for me to get revenge on people in my comics... i got into even more trouble for making a comic like that even though i never made direct indication i was planing on hurting someone for real  
TheCelestialDemoness Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014  Student Filmographer
I remember when we had this convo over skype. Yep, I was bullied a lot in elementary school for being the weird kid with a huge imagination. Later bullied in junior high for not wearing makeup or being boy crazy. I was a nerd. High school got a little better because I developed a violent aggressive attitude. I fought people and won. Though, art has kept me sane. If it weren't for vent art I probably would have shot up a school.
Rainbowslover Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
The same thing is happening.I heard if you like MLP they beat you up.So now I'm afraid
To tell people what I enjoy):
friendfry Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for this. I have been ignored by my best friend this year, and we were so close. I knew her since the beginning of this school year, but she decided that we were too close, and since I was straight, she apparently liked me and I didnt know. So now, she says I stole her art style and her ideas, when in fact I asked for permission to use all that stuff. She also talks about me behind my back, and before all this she hacked my old deviantart account I had for 3 years. She said I was a terrible human being, everyone i have ever met hates me, and my art style was ugly. And after that I made this account, gained more watchers than I ever had on that old account, and figured out who my real friends are. What made this worse is that she went to the Principal and said that my vent art was me "targeting her" and thats what started all this, when nobody even knows what she really did. So somehow, me expressing my feelings got me in trouble. Thank you so much for posting this journal. It really helped me see, I did nothing wrong by posting those pictures. I have actually improved in art since she left, my grades have improved, and I am overall a happier person. There is no drama in my life anymore. It ended with her hating me, but I think the pros outway the cons. I still wonder if I had known she liked me before when she hinted at it by shipping our two OCs if anything had been different. But I know I am better off now then I ever was with her. I cant believe everything that has happened in the last two months and how out of control it all got.
Skeleion Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Something similar happen to me too a few times... Its sad to lose a  friend due to hidden crushes that spiral out of control. But you can't help how you feel and they should get over it..

I try to watch getting too close to people now, besides my boyfriend.    
friendfry Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah. Thanks so much. I have this one guy i really like so hopefully we can date when we get a little older because we plan to room together in college with our two best friends. :)
ChessWolf Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Inspiring <3 thanks for your words of encouragement <3

Ive been bullied the past few years and im sure it wont stop, so this realllly helps c:
Nemo-TV-Champion Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student General Artist
I swear I commented on this journal and we talked a tiny bit but my comment somehow disappeared o.o;
ShadowDragon105 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for sharing this with us
I feel a bit better know and sorry that you were going too through this horror
inuyasha666hiei Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i never went to high school so i dident have many bullys i still ran into people that called me names mostly the barbie look alikes XD
goiku Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Sorry to hear you were bullied. :c I think a lot of people, especially artists undergo that at some point because they look at the world with a different view. And because they excell at something, what can arouse jealousy.

I've been bullied mildly in secondary school , mostly because i was always so quiet and was afraid to talk back and defend myself. So I was an easy target. It didn't help that most of my class consisted of incompetent and loud students. I had very little in common with them so I submersed myself in drawing. 

Now, looking back at those times, I realize how bad my shyness really was and how much I have changed without losing myself. If one of those guys would dare to bully me again I would probably knee him in the nuts now. XD So my story is not that bad. What I really hate though is being used for your skills. I've had that happen to me multiple times and it hurts. But that's pretty off-topic so i will stop babbling.
Diznits Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
So people got on you for enjoying Pokemon? That's unfortunate. Thankfully that sort of thing has really mellowed down in the past three years, and it's been a while since anyone's made fun of me for playing and drawing pokemon all the time (thankfully. I tried to be a good sport about it and handle the comments with humour, but getting shit for liking something is frustrating and can be pretty exhausting), so that's a big plus with the transition into high school. My overall experience has been a generally pretty decent one, and here's hoping it stays that way.
Kateboat Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm lucky enough not to need to vent too often, but I'll be sure to try this approach whenever I do!
RainbowCharizard Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
haha I do this a lot... o-o'
AerithEchidna4rt Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I might try this :)
thatwolfchick21 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
i thought i was the only one who did that c':
AmethystCreatures Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Student General Artist
This is really inspiring! I thought I was the only one that was bullied for liking something, like how I loved Pokemon when I was younger and people made fun of me for it.. 
piratewolf4ever Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Student General Artist
My friends were often bullied, I comforted them as much as possible but they never really recovered. Its a shame people are judged so cruelly just for what they like.
BlackMew13 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i'd love to do that, but i cant draw when im angry or sad >.>
it just make me even more angry...
Spigos Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awwww :c That's inspiring =)
chakat-shadows Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014
I dunoo, your Icon and the title just made me laugh a little. Althou your right, there realy is no good way to handle it.
IcestormTundra Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I would draw as well after school if I had been bullied ... I tended to throw them away afterwards in case they scared some people  ^^;
purple-reaper Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist
i drew to when i was down becouse of bulliying or just in general it works for me and that is so wel said :) i agree
minimewbuster Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
i could never get around and deal with bulling when i was younger * i still get bullied now but less so and doodle away the stress and anger from it* and where i live we have many problems with youths some which find delight in annoying my friend and making her scared to leave her house to go to the shop * i only just got over not being able to leave my house due to bullies*
bulling is one of those obstacles a lot of people have to deal with * whether through art or hobbies to a lesson a week of martial arts* i used to do karate to help build up my confidence * plan on going back soon* and i found it helped with relieving stress due to bulling but b

also i agree with ash well spoken
minimewbuster Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
typo right at the end as my laptop decided to move my mouse so i clicked submit *facepalm*
FauxusLight Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's amazing how Pokemon is so deeply engraved in us...
Thiefing Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014
I make darn sonas all the time :D
DragonMewGirl Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Well spoken.
Anger is passion, and so is art.
costume-cat Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student
Ash I totally agree with you. It is a good way to get the anger or pain out passively. I do it myself quite a bit whether it is posted on a media website or not. Really appreciate the journal and I am sorry you were bullied, unfortunately I think it is an all to common thing. I am now 19 and in my freshman year of college and I am still being bullied. Anyway I rarely take the time to write posts like this but I felt it was important. 
MileniaKitsuvee Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Imagine being bullied even into adulthood. Yeah.

I guess here is a good place to say this stuff now that it came up:

No matter what you like there will always be idiots who will say it is "immature, stupid, etc.", even when you are someone who knows when to be serious/do the right thing. I was bullied and taken advantage of for years (that I wont go into detail here) but I finally stood up to the assholes and (surprise surprise) they tried their same old trick of blaming me (like so many other times that I just stood there and said nothing, I just took the abuse, which fucking scarred me mentally). But I had enough and told them off which sadly cost me friends. :/

And all because of the stuff I like and because I can draw.

Even in a workplace. I was speechless that "professional" people stoop so low. :no: Funny though, I know more people who like anime/cartoons and they are more mature in situations that call for it unlike the people who label themselves as "mature professional adults". Oh and lets not forget how these "mature adults" keep talking/stalking for "dirt" about the person(s) even when you have erased them from your life. And then people wonder why of my misanthropy.

Trash. All of them. :3 Remember that people.

lol sorry for the mini vant Ash, btw, I like those pictures. I think I remember some of them from back then.
Skeleion Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well as they say high school never ends sadly =C
MileniaKitsuvee Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I thought it did but yeah sad it's true u.u
MileniaKitsuvee Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Vent* typo
pariahpoet Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014
I think this is a fantastic idea. I was bullied in school and now at 30 I'm still being bullied in the workplace. :(

But that's what I have art and videogames for. With the added benefit of knowing now that my bullies are egotistical morons and their behavior is a reflection of themselves, not me.
PixellPunk Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I'm not really a fan of MLP but the fact that someone could be mentally tortured to the point they almost kill themselves all because he liked a cartoon is mind boggling.
I was bullied myself in middle school for liking video games and such but thankfully I had people in my life to help me too outside of school plus social media hadn't blossomed yet. Eventually a solid punch their "leader's" face got them to stay away from me for good. Though I never say you should resort to violence until there is clearly no options left.
To anyone out there who is bullied, be strong and don't let those people destroy you from the inside out.
Kawaii4eva Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
When I was young, I like drawing because I always alone and learned things no child should. When I first recovered your art on Youtube, I was amazed and believe it or not, you were my inspiration to get better at drawing. I've always loved dark things, and I didn't know how to make friends. Still don't. I just got my first friend in 15 years. I first got home-schooled at the beginning of 6th grade. I was bullied and even got in fights. I eventually closed my self off to the world. Developed Socialphobia, Scopophobia and Cherophobia. And something that I've been thinking about....As along as there are humans who can't learn to accept other's differences, peace will always be temporary. 
Suicidal-DaRk Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Back when i first saw all your dark/ vent art I got inspired to try and draw my feelings like those
and let me tell you they were a great way to improve!
Erudi Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah, I agree this is one of the healthiest things to do.  Most of the time I need to, I take out my anger on fictional characters through writing or role playing.
Thank you for the little reminder! :heart:
kage-niji Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I think I'll unleash my anger tonight... :(
Enigmatic-Wolf Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student Filmographer
I'm assuming that you were in your deep thoughts and you have one of those momemts where you just remembered about your worst days.I get those too. Thank you anyway for speaking your mind, even I forget that I can draw to express my feelings.:huggle:
Miss-Nessa Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student General Artist
I was bullied, and need to escape from it. The only way I can find it is the power of art
mansonic057 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014
This is the 5th thing about bullying i've seen today... what is this world coming to? Bullying needs to stop, and this sort of thing actually will help with it. raising awareness of this is great, and eventually, someone might do something about a bully because they read this.
FireMoon9 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student General Artist
This is exactly what I'm thinking of ! I'm really afraid for our future ...
D-Rock92 Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist

I read of that story on Equestria Daily. Even when these things happen, it won't stop bullying as a whole. It's good that you found some outlet for these frustrations, as bottled up they can eventually come up violently. I used to be picked on in elementary school for being "the smart kid". I was eventually able to get over that, and even became close friends to the main guy behind it. I'm pretty sure that experience is rare for anyone else.

Although I have found that I'm capable of imagining horrible things happening to bad people I feel deserve it, and quite honestly I scare myself with what I think up. As long as you're able to take control of your anger and eventually let it go, you should be alright.

But this kid was only eleven! He likely wouldn't know how to handle this.

yamitatsu Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Student Writer
What you have just said is completely true. Thank you for speaking up :)
aAshleyB Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Love your custom journal btw! :love:
aAshleyB Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Bullying really got rolling for me in elementary school when I fell asleep in the front desk of a history class (the teacher was monotonous and went on and on)...I'd rested my head, and it was Fall season (I am a seasonal allergenic) and totally woke. myself. up. Snoring.  :c
Talk about scarring yourself.  With my head still low, teacher silent, knowing what I'd done.  I looked at him *looks at me silently in shame*, I look to my right where my friend is sitting right next to me and ask 'Why didn't you wake me up?!!' her response was literally: 'You sounded so comfortable!'  Obviously, this was true...but not a split second after stopping myself everyone in the class (save the teacher) was laughing at me. (these were kids I grew up and graduated with)

In Jr High I was made fun of for having a deeper voice and bushy eyebrows (and I hadn't really learned how to wear makeup yet) so they'd call me a man, guy, or 'gross thing', periodically.

It stopped in high school, when I got depressed enough looking that they may have literally been thinking one more insult would push me over the edge to suicide.

Drawing always was the only thing that could distract me enough to take my mind of the continuous verbal beat-downs.

It was lame but here I am, two and 3/4 years out of High School and I'm the happiest I've ever been! :D
Praise God hallelujah!
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